People who may have known me before my awakening would totally agree that I had a major attitude problem. And that major attitude problem was totally part of my personality. You either LOVED me or hated me, and sometimes I couldn’t really understand why anybody could hate me. My attitude has gotten a lot better. How I react to certain situations, needs improvement, and I’m on the right path!
A month ago, I was tested on patience, gratitude, trust in myself, and equanimity.
I juggle a full schedule, like always, because I am a holistic hustler. I teach kids yoga, I’m a loctitian, a reiki practitioner, an intuitive reader, a personal assistant to an international drummer, and a full time mother and fiancé. On Friday mornings, I try to keep my schedule clear because I teach kids yoga at Big Yoga, from noon – 1pm. Ideally, I want to always be totally ready to teach. So setting personal clientele appointments prior to teaching is really not a good idea, if I want to make sure that I’m at my best with how I want to execute my lesson plans in class.
I booked a client (loc maintenance – retwist) for 8:30am. The original plan was to drop off my boys, and head out to Spring, TX, finish my client in enough time to get to Big Yoga, relax in my classroom environment and be ready for the kids.
At 6:15am, I dropped off my boys, got on the freeway to Spring, TX. Judging by the flow of traffic, I knew that I would get there at least an hour before the appointment time. Because of that extra time given to me before seeing my client, I decided to go to Target to get a couple of things for my Rainbow-themed yoga class. I arrived at Target by 7:30am, and ended up waiting in the parking lot until 8am (that’s when Target opens the door). In that waiting time, I was able to actively listen to inspirational clips on YouTube and HayHouse Radio, to keep my mind right for the day.
Awesome so far, right? Yeah, I know!
I buy everything I need and head out to the car. As I was driving the cart to the car, I looked down at my wristlet, and the first thing that came to mind, in a calm voice was, “you’re gonna lose that wristlet”. Immediately, I got defensive with myself and in my mind, arrogantly said, “No, I’m not!” What made even think I was gonna lose my wristlet, is the fact that I had it in a somewhat invisible area. You know that part of the cart where kids sit? Well that part was folded forward (closed), and that’s where my wristlet was resting. I get everything in the car, blast my music and zoomed down the road, extra excited because I’m right on schedule!
The plan was to finish my client’s hair by 10:45am, and get to Big Yoga by 11:20-ish. I arrived to my client’s house, go through all my essentials for her hair appointment, check listing everything and realized, “oh shit, my wristlet!”. All I could think about is how throwed off my schedule was gonna be! Driving back to Target, I applied some serious intention and reiki energy to the possibility that my wristlet would still be there! In my mind, I held the thought of me finding my wristlet with the highest intent! But guess what, there was a small mental tug-of-war with my ego and spirit. Spirit was trying to keep my mind at peace, knowing that everything will be exactly how I desired, while ego was upset at the slow ass drivers on the road! So back and forth, in my mind fear would arise and I would knock it down with the positive thought,
“everything is in divine order, it will be there“.
“These freaking drivers are sooooooo getting on my nerves!”
“Everything is in divine order, it will be there!”
GOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Driiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiveeeeee!! Shit!!!
“Everything is in divine order, it will be there, you’re fine.”
“No need to stress, you can’t make the drivers go faster, be calm, it will be there.”
I get to the Target parking lot and I see the cart I used, it was the only one out there. And I see that the seat is not pushed forward anymore, it’s now pushed back.
Everything is in divine order, it will be there.
I parked the car like a mad woman, parking my car extremely crooked, took a deep breath and calmly walked in the store. The first person I approached was the manager who stated that the lost and found was in guest services. I get to guest services and I explain the situation to the rep, she asked for my name, looked in a small drawer and gave back my wristlet! I opened my wristlet, and instantly noticed $40 gone. First thought, “hmmm, they must’ve really needed that $40, blessings to them”.In my past life, I would’ve been raising all types of hell at everybody for my own careless behavior.
I remained calm, and walked back to my car happily because everything else was in the wristlet, and “hell yeah, I got my wristlet back!” I wasn’t too worried about the money gone, it definitely was gonna come back to me.
Life Lesson: The universe has my back! I got my own back! My positive seeds sewn in the height of chaos, reaped beautifully when I found that wristlet!
But oh shit, what about my time schedule?!
I get back to my client’s house at 9:02am, finished her hair at 10:30am.
But then my client says, ” I don’t have any cash, I need to go to the bank, can you follow me?”
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!”, in my mind, but what came out was, “SURE, no problem!”
So we get to the bank and, I’m watching my client drive through one line, out of that line, into another line, out of that line, into a parking space, and now walking inside the bank.
It’s is now 11:10am
I needed to be back on the road, en route by 11:00am.
I’m kind of nervous, thinking what am I gonna do if she says she can’t get any money out, which lead me to remember that my gas tank was on E, and I didn’t have my debit card.
“Everything is in divine order, you will get there on time.”
She comes out the bank, close to 11:20am, with cash!
On the road, safely speeding and weaving through traffic.
The gaslight comes on…..
It is now 11:32am.
I stopped to get gas, jumped back on the freeway and made it to the full parking lot of Big Yoga.
It is now 11:50am, class starts at noon.
I searched for a parking space, with intentions of finding a parking space in the main parking lot, and I did!
It is now 11:53am.
I focused on a positive ending, instead of negative horrible ending! And won!!
THANK YOU, to the Universe, to myself! I’m learning!! I’m applying!!
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