Week 4 – Day 22
Hmmm, this week is all about relationships. I was very limited in thinking that this week would be focusing on the relationship between my LOVER and I.
No, not at all!
Even better though, was the work needed to be done with the relationships I have with my immediate family members. We all have certain issues with our LOVED ones, and even some issues that fester into dilemmas that can seem irreversible. My attention to building a strong relationship with my mother and children are at a forefront. My boys are not little anymore, and I’m entering into a new phase of parenthood, being a parent to teenage boys, which can be scary and is so very new to me. I’m not going to lie, I’m somewhat concerned about our relationship, the older they get. My intention is to keep the lines of communication open and making them feel LOVED, important, and comfortable with opening up to me, as well as me doing the same. As I am learning and GROWING within my spirituality, there are definitely things I choose to teach them, so that they’ll be equipped for life, knowing how to handle their individual and personal life lessons. I choose to give up the false perception of being nervous to guide and parent my children as they GROW into manhood. I’ve examined a lot of how I was parented, and how my mother was parented, and see a pattern of great things to keep and cyclical things that need to change. Let’s see what opens up for me this week! I’m so not ready, and I’m ready! I choose LOVE instead of this!
Week 4 – Day 23
My mother and I had a very deep conversation that I was not ready to have. However, like I said in Week 3’s post, the lessons are coming as soon as I ask for help with them. The time for change is now.
Week 4 – Day 24
Do you sometimes get those unkind thoughts about others. Because I am human, this happens to me, of course. When I was younger, I would let those thoughts fester, building up to a strong dislike or ugly opinion of whomever I wasn’t vibing with. As of recently (within the past few years), unkind thoughts of people don’t really have time to build up because I’m convicted quickly. Yes, there are times where in my mind I’m disturbed, angry, or have an attitude with someone. I’m also grown enough to look deeper into the “why” of how I’m feeling about someone, making sure I don’t take on unnecessary energy and most importantly, making sure that I give everyone a clean state or a fresh start, or having the knowledge to distance myself from unhappy people who I see vibrating on fear (I ain’t trying to be up in their shit!).
I’m so conscious of my own energy! I choose to not indulge in negative thinking about someone, or even participate in listening to someone’s woes about another, without at least adding a resolution. The energy I choose to give and radiate is of a higher vibration, and that is some real work. In times where I am emotionally triggered by someone’s actions directly or indirectly, the work from inside is what keeps me grounded. The work of seeing LOVE instead of the bullshit is what keeps me grounded. It takes consistency to be the change you seek. If you see no problem with your reaction to others and still getting the same non-working results or repeating the same life lessons over and over, it’s time for a different approach. In my everyday life, I’m learning that most people respond so much more gracefully to LOVE, even when they are totally pissed off in the moment, they can’t help but to soften up a bit! Also know that your irritation with others is a reflection of something you don’t like of yourself, and that’s real talk! Dig Deep!
Week 4 – Day 25
So this affirmation is probably my most favorite, this week. Consciously, I chose to have a holy encounter or experience with people today, showing up through REALLY listening and responding, passing no judgment on first sight, and openly sharing from my experience. Having unwanted conversations with family members helps break down those barriers that keeps you from experiencing soul to soul contact. I’m encourage to stay open to experiencing positive soul connections with everyone, and most definitely with family.
Side Note: Some people don’t know that I am the only child, only grand-child, and only great-grand-child on my maternal side. With that being said, I’m used to a certain type of comfortable loneliness that keeps me from opening up to people. My energy always attracts people who open up to me, because I am intuitive and a great listener. However, I tend to clam up when it’s time to share my experiences. With conscious thought of what I share, I see this part of me growing beautifully.
Week 4 – Day 26
I choose to do the work! I choose to consistently work on self-growth and self-LOVE, which makes me a better person to be around. There are so many LOVING ways to respond to people who are not in the same vibration as me. Knowing when to leave is also another great way to diffuse high negative energy. Because of how I vibe, I can tell that I have much control of the energy I bring to any situation. Either you’ll remain at your low vibration and leave, or you’ll come up to my vibration and grow. I’m also at the end of this stick, seeing that I’ve either left a heightened situation prematurely with low vibration or I’ve allowed LOVE to open me up to peace, understanding, and some new miraculous experiences. At the end of the day, it’s all about choices. What will you choose?
Week 4 – Day 27
All the relationships that have cause me pain, and/or cause emotional triggers, which domino effects into emotional eating, I now choose to release this fear. Tonight’s exercise called to have me list all the relationships in my life that caused me pain, and then releasing them through this affirmation: ” [Insert Name of Person] is my greatest assignment. This holy encounter offers me a chance to release fear and strengthen my faith in LOVE. I choose to see them with LOVE.” I did this with every name I listed, and felt lighter. It feels so good to release!
Now, I still have names that I have not added to this list and NEED to add, to release. In time, I’m sure I will come to a point where I can release the energy of that relationship. I choose to transform beautifully, y’all!
Week 4 – Day 28
This was very good week for learning , reflecting, and applying. It started out kinda of icky, and at the same time, all that ickiness was necessary substance to getting to the root of some deeply impacted issues. I’ve released a lot unwanted energy, and ready for week 5!
*How many times was LOVE mentioned in this week’s post?*
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