Keeping my nails done!
Thanks to @apresnailofficial and their awesome Diamond Gel Charm Adhesive, I’m NEVER using nail glue again!
It’s about that time for me! Spring cleaning body, mind, & spirit! Setting myself up for a beautiful path full or miracles, transformation, and living my purpose, is my intention this go ’round for May Cause Miracles. Following this 40 day shift every spring looks like something I’ll be doing ritually, so to all of you, join me on my next 40days adventure! In the meantime, you can follow my journey and read what shows up for me through my experience in shifting my perception from fear to LOVE. I also strongly urge you all to have May Cause Miracles by Gabrielle Bernstein in your personal library, it’ll change your life!
So let’s get started!
Week 1 – Day 1
What I’m discovering is that I have a BIG ass fear of lack of money, not having enough or having just enough to pay bills. My fear stems from mainly how I was raised and seeing multiple family members mismanage money all the time. At the same time, who was prepared in high school on how to prepare for and maintain financial security?
I’m pretty good with making sure bills are taken care of so that my family and I can be comfortable, however, the need and desire to want more or create more opportunities from my passion, to gain abundance and prosperity, has been on my radar lately. Through all the creative outlets I have, prosperity is close to touch. So, restructuring my relationship with money (by way of sustaining a healthy relationship with money) looks like one of the the many things I need to focus on for this 40 day journey. Today, I am willing to witness my fear, and will make conscious decisions when spending money.
Week 1 – Day 2
What came up in my meditation practice was to start researching and educating myself on a few financial matters. I logged onto FinancialJuneteenth.com and found some pretty insightful articles and listened to a few audio interviews through the HayHouse World Summit. I made a plan to start spending consciously, spending money on necessities. By taking the fear out of not having enough and seeing differently through the lens of LOVE, I can begin to shift into a healthy relationship with my money. Funny thing about writing about this is that I never thought my focus would be about MY relationship with money. I have weight to lose, a LOVE life to nurture, a family to stay connected to, and a fire to keep burnin’ on this ever evolving passion of mine. Intuition is directly putting me in alignment with everything I desires and the root of everything I desire is money.
Week 1 – Day 3
LOVE certainly did not create the fear of lack of money! Today, I went from finding $6 to $20, and it was all found in places I never thought to look (i.e. old purse, in between old receipts, pockets of winter coats, etc.) I told y’all I was spring cleaning!
Week 1 – Day 4
Feeling good, feeling great! Feeling great, feeling good, how are you?! That’s where I’m at right now, shout out to OUTKAST! Although we’re in full Mercury Retrograde and shit/shift happens, I’m in a place of gratitude. I’m expecting the very best outcome and so it is!
Week 1 – Day 5
Shifting to something else I’m working on besides my relationship with money, is my ever-evolving passion! YOGA, YOGA, YOGA, is pretty much my calling, among other spiritual practices I indulge in. Today is the day, I add a little spiritual “umph” to being of service and being an awesome yoga teacher. Yes, I’m attending the Power of Assisting workshop at Big Power Yoga, which focuses on the yoga assistant being of service to the yogi/yogini in a yoga class. Have you ever experience being assisted in a yoga class? For me, very little, AND not as much as I would like, especially considering all the heavenly and powerful assists to keep you empowered while in challenging poses. I am too excited about this workshop because it’ll thrust me and keep in perfect alignment with my yoga journey. I am too thrilled about learning and applying everything awesome from this workshop.
Week 1 – Day 6
Shout out to my yogini “OMies”, Brooks, Phoenix, & Heidi! Our time together creating vision boards was an awesome experience! We must do it again! 😉
Week 1 – Day 7
What an exciting week, full of miracles!
My Power of Assisting workshop was full of LOVE, gratitude, a BIG ass 2hr YOGA class, and beautiful souls! Taking Power of Assisting solidified that I am truly on the right path to my yoga journey. I LOVE being of service to people and sharing my light and reiki-energy through my LOVE of yoga. The day I assist my first yoga class, and then many days after, is gonna feel so empowering (and I LOVE that feeling!)! I know that every class I assist, and every being I connect with, will be spiritually rewarding and full of life lessons! I just LOVE the fact that I am a reiki practitioner, and can integrate reiki with yoga assists! So, pretty much the special added touch of divine healing energy flowing through me and to the people I assist is going to be heaven sent, and for that, I am grateful to be a vessel of divine LOVE and healing energy.
I didn’t over spend on anything! YAY!
I’m learning to be patient with myself when it comes to mindful eating and mindful spending!
I connected with so many amazing people in Houston’s yoga community! Shout out to the whole yoga community at BIG Power Yoga (@BIGPowerYoga), Claire & Olivia from Black Swan Yoga (@BSYHouston), Nicole Peralta, Sally Howe Garwood, Gayatri Parikh, my Sunday crew at BIG Memorial, and of course my family!
Alright Week 2, let’s get it!!
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I’ve been playing Live Your Live by Yuna on repeat all day! I first heard of Yuna about a year ago, and I still hadn’t explored her music thoroughly enough to give any reviews. While listening to Yuna’s station on Pandora, Live Your Life came on, and instantly I fell in LOVE. It’s such a right on time song for me, especially with all the miracles I’ve purposely been in alignment with. Not many people would know this, but I’m actually kind of shy. Live Your Life came to me as confirmation to continue to step out my comfortable zone, and be comfortable with being imperfect. Live your life like you really want to, is what’s repeated in this song, and serves to be a really great mantra!
As a bonus, here’s another great song by Yuna, Lights & Camera first heard in Yin Yoga, taught by Belem Acosta at Big Power Yoga.
So now that I’m officially on Yuna’s music, I suggest you get into it, too! You know I know my music, and won’t steer you wrong!
*Check out my playlists on Spotify, Chill Flow Yoga & Love Goddess Yoga Groove Mix
Big & Juicy!!
If you have not made your way to Big & Juicy in Houston, you’re totally missing out! There’s two locations for Big & Juicy (Montrose & Memorial). The Big & Juicy I frequently go to is located at 1014 Wirt Rd #290, inside of Big Power Yoga Studio!
On a side note–You’ve gotta try the yoga at BIG, hella awesome!
So, I’ve decided to try every smoothie on their menu, every Tuesday, especially for Virgin Tuesday. Today, I tried the Hannah Banana! Made with apples, almond butter, hemp seeds, bananas, strawberries, vanilla, and almond milk, this smoothie will definitely fill you up. The Hannah Banana is very creamy and smooth. It was very good on the taste buds, and great if you’re the type of person who likes to play it safe with smoothie flavors. It’s not too exotic, and it’s not too bland, it’s just right!
Pros: Awesome, creamy, and fulfilling! Keeps you full for awhile!
On a scale from 1 to 10
I have no idea where to start!!! I had so much fun! I learned so much! I met so many great people! I connected with so many enlightened souls!
The TYC (Texas Yoga Conference) kicked off on 1/30, and was a full weekend of exploration, fun, and awareness!
Let’s just get out what I didn’t like from the TYC, because everything else was soooooo supremely awesome and I wanna hurry up and talk about it!
So what should you expect from being at the TYC?!
To be honest with you, the TYC is an event that must be experience for yourself. My review, is just that, my review of my experience. You know the saying, “you gotta be there”? Well, you really have to be there, to get the full on experience and over stand my experience!
I walked in an immediately, vendors everywhere, happy hippie souls, smiles every where. Every one there had the best spirit! Every one spoke to was such a delight, and really seemed to honor the meaning of NAMASTE!
I couldn’t pass up the table with the fashionable, patent-pending custom yoga mat straps! If I could, I would’ve bought at least 4! The style patterns of the straps are so cute and unique. Nineteen Eleven’s straps are hand sewn and very durable. I haven’t had a problem with carrying my mat at all with Nineteen Eleven’s adjustable elastic straps. I’m buying more, I promise!!
Kate Sornson, Director of Logistics & Wellness Lifestyle Promoter was such a sweetie! And the cute contemporary modern decor on the tour bus, definitely made me want to jump aboard and do some traveling! Kate travels the U.S. on a Wellness Lifestyle Tour, giving exposure to wellness lifestyle living, foods, and events. If you don’ t bump into the bus tour in person, you can surely track their destinations on BuzzBusTour.com!
I’ll start another post with all the vendors that caught my eye! Support the vendors! 😉
Yoga of Relationships presented by Renu Namjoshi
This was a must class for me! Renu spoke about LOVE relationships, intertwined with yoga and astrology. The four types of LOVE she spoke on were Optimization LOVE, Divine LOVE, Unconditional LOVE, and Universal LOVE. Principles to sustaining a long-term committed relationship were covered using Ayurveda, Vedic Astrology, & Yoga myths and rituals. Also, recognizing the masculine and feminine principles in all of us, brought awareness to exactly what type of person we are, and our expectations in a relationship. I learned that all relationships start off, optimal. We are all looking for unconditional LOVE. Renu, step by step, broke down the types of relationships by their meaning, which in return, causes us to re-evaluate what type of relationships we’re currently in, and what types of relationships we desire to be in. The most I learned out of Renu’s workshop is you must not expect LOVE from your mate. Give LOVE, the more you give, the more it’s reciprocated, and if it’s not, then it’s clear you must do what you need to do to make yourself happy. I know this much, Renu makes me want to study my birth chart to check out how I pick out certain men in relationships! Knowing what sign is in Venus and Jupiter, and all the planets matter, when on this spiritual journey.
Reconciling Faith & Practice: A Guide For Teacher & Students presented by Monette Chilson
I LOVE the fact that Monette lives in Houston, easily accessible!! Monette spoke on merging yoga with any religion and being open-minded enough to not subject God, to just HE. If GOD is within us all, should’t there be some type of spiritual duality? We can connect to spiritual gods & goddesses through exploring your personal relationship with GOD through yoga, this totally deepens your spiritual connection and practice. I was glad to be in a class where the exploration of ancient goddesses were examined more. I do intuitive readings with a goddess oracle deck that really speaks volumes to me, and to be receptive of the feminine energy in spirit helps me to be more aware, well rounded spiritually, and have a greater understanding of who I am, and where I come from. Monette Chilson is the author of Sophia Rising, a book written about the the spiritual side of yoga and connecting with the feminine energy of your spirit. Examining life lessons on and off the mat, from a spiritual perspective, and knocking down the barriers on traditional beliefs systems, aligns you with a deeper connection to merge yoga, and all of the world’s faith traditions. I just received my copy of Sophia Rising and will be doing a review of the book, along with an interview with Monette Chilson in the near future! Stay tuned for those spiritual gems!
Romance The Shakti….Turn On The Juice presented by Raye Lynn Rath
I had no idea what to expect from this class, however anything that has romance and LOVE in it, I wanna be all in the mix of that! Raye Lynn Rath, a sweet Houston yogi, that’s been practicing yoga for more than 20 years! That’s impressive! All I could think about while sitting in her class, was
“I wanna be in my 50’s practicing yoga just like her!”
As we practiced,
I learned to be present in every asana and to be conscious of my breath, in every move. My yoga practice has shifted my focus into self-LOVE and self-care. I learned that moving slowly in my positions instead of trying to keep up with others, is my natural flow, embracing my flow.
What Every Yoga Studio and Teacher Must Know About The Law! by Garry Kissiah
So, I think of myself as my own little yoga teacher, and play with ideas that I can create something beneficial to the mind, body, and soul, while still keeping my original awesome personality! Studying the law and how yoga teachers should protect themselves seemed real clear for me.
Gary dropped so much knowledge in that 2 1/2 hour workshop, and the class could’ve went 3hrs longer with everything there is to know! He talked about students with injuries, teaching yoga classes outside of the yoga studio, lawsuits, self-care, running a successful business, websites, blogs, the importance of taking your own photos, and playing music in the studio from Pandora vs your own playlist. I urge all yoga teachers to get to know Gary Kissiah, he has wealth of knowledge on this subject.
Kundalini and Bhakti LOVE by Moses LOVE
What is Kundalini?
Awesome-Bad-Ass feminine energy that lies coiled & dormant at the base of your spine! When activated through meditation, pranamaya breathing, and asanas, you’re in for a enlightened treat!
What is Bhakti?
A devotional worship practiced by the Hindus.
I had the pleasure to meet Moses LOVE, at his vendor booth, before taking his class. A woman I was speaking with urged me to meet him because we share LOVE in our spiritual names! I was extra interested in meeting him as well, I wanted to see the LOVE. His energy was awesome!
He was cool,
He’s very likable!
Moses shared an interesting story of his awakening and how he was led to be the person he is today, beautiful story. He has such a giving heart.
I’ve always been fascinated with Kundalini Yoga, but never try it. The word kundalini sparks something in me when I say it! Moses LOVE led us through this fast paced breathing (pranayama) that took me somewhere else. I kinda felt like I had an outer body experience. I could feel my body swaying from side to side, and I felt real good, LOVED and at peace. Afterwards, I felt like I met another part of myself that I didn’t know existed. Weird, but cool feeling! I felt very in tuned to my goddess energy, and limitless. I am so amazed by the abundance of LOVE you tap into through yoga. I wish more people would get into yoga, it’s such an awesome peace-enhancing devotion, made especially for you. His website is ILoveYoga.com, beautiful tapestry and harem pants to browse and buy!
Use Baptiste Yoga To Access Your Biggest Life Possible! by Nancy Sheridan and Laura Calcaterra
I was such a proud student sitting in Laura and Nancy’s class!
You know the yoga studio I keep talking about?
3115 Allen Parkway
Houston, TX 77019
Yeah, so I already knew what I was in store for when taking this class! It felt like being at home!
For me, Baptiste Power Vinyasa Yoga has really gave me access to being empowered, and relating real life to the mat. I’m so into yoga for the spiritual gems, and allowing me to get to know my authentic self! I don’t know how many people practice yoga with just focusing on the physicality. I do know that for me, I gain so much more out of my practice when I’m empowered, either from somebody or myself. When old tapes run through mind, and I’m able to strengthen myself while letting go off what’s no use to me, is makes me aware of being someone I like. It all goes back to self-care and self-LOVE, at least for me and my journey! Laura and Nancy guided us to dig deep, finding the old tapes that negatively replay in our minds that keep us stuck, to acknowledging our tapes, giving us access to making new positive declarations! We all practiced yoga, and courageously shared our declarations in a supported and LOVING space. I left feeling empowered and a little more focused on what I want my life to be like.
The experience, lessons, and spiritual gems I found at the Texas Yoga Conference was a bundle of surprises! In every class, I felt like I was opening a present of something I’ve been wanting for a long time! I will totally be at the Texas Yoga Conference next year, see you there!
***For pictures and videos from the event***
#MenaLoveTXYogaConf #TXYogaConf on Instagram!
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I just started training, Special Needs Kids Yoga Training! My schedule will be a little off for the next 7 days. The review on Being Mary Jane S1E5, will be posted by Tuesday morning. May Cause Miracles week 3 recap will be posted on 2/25/14 and May Cause Miracles week 4, will begin 3/4/14. The review on the Texas Yoga Conference will be released on the first Tuesday of March (3/4/14), to be featured in “Virgin Tuesday”.
Bare with me, while I concentrate on this very special yoga training!
Miracles & Blessings,
Namaste y’all! 😉
** Sooooooo, after long contemplative thinking, I decided to stop reviewing Being Mary Jane. I’ll still be watching, however I can’t give the attention to it, when I have so much to share about other things!
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Mary Jane & Andre
Really? That’s how we opening up episode 3, with Mary Jane giving Andre head? I’m waiting on the excuse to why he didn’t respond the night that she was texting him while his ass was with his wife. Unfortunately, her brother, Patrick pops up on them, literally, like in the same room, straight busting her out, saying “so you screwing married men, now” And I’m totally shocked and surprised, because how the hell does he know that Andre is married? Mary Jane is totally mortified at being caught in the act by her brother giving head to Andre! Real shortly afterwards, Patrick leaves and we find out how he knows Andre. Apparently, Andre used to promote his club, and he had no idea that Mary Jane was Patrick Patterson was his sister! Talk about a small world! Mary Jane blows off the handle saying that none of everything they’re into is okay and how could he even be okay with all of this. Erratically, she’s expressing why she shouldn’t even be sleeping with a married man, she deserves better, she was raise better, and just plain NOT OKAY! She looks at the pool and tells Andre that he didn’t fix the pool light like he promised. Andre, sitting down, somewhat calm, asked her “for what, why are you concerned about a pool light?”. With much attitude, she looks at Andre and says, “why aren’t you concerned with the pool light?”, giving the silent indication and insinuating that he doesn’t care about no one but himself. Andre stands up, removes one of his shirts and dives in the pool, turns on the pool light like the ultimate handyman, surprising Mary Jane as she looks from a distance. He swims back, getting out of the pull drenched and sexy, asking her “anything else you want me to do?” Lol, she couldn’t say shit!! But she did dry him off, which turned into some pleasurable cunnininlingus from Andre.
Afterwards, she’s outside wrapped in a blanket, looking at the ring he got her, still in the blue box, while he was inside getting dressed.He walks up behind her, catching her looking at the ring, and he says, “you should’ve woke me, I would’ve joined you”.
Ok, pause…..see, I’m kinda irritated that he’s functioning like ain’t nothing wrong. And I’m not sure what I expect him to do. I guess, if he really LOVES her, I wanna see him be a little more proactive in getting a divorce from his wife, or at least be moving out and living soooooo separately! I’m unclear on his plans now that he’s exposed! I do really feel that he LOVES her!
Anyway, he’s all feeling good that it looks like she’s giving great consideration to his proposal by looking at the ring. However, his bubble is busted when she gestures giving the ring back and says “not-like-this”. The situation is very stressful, so I agree with her decision.
This week’s quote:
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just have to find the ones worth suffering for.”
Mary Jane & Family
All the ladies of the family, including unwelcomed extended family member, his girlfriend Tracy, are in the kitchen planning a surprise party for Patrick. Deciding if Mary Jane is going to make a cake, Tracy suggests a german chocolate. The displeasing and agitated, Helen, suggests Red Velvet cake because “it’s his favorite”. Mary Jane comes up with a brilliant idea, to make both so that he doesn’t have to choose between “amazing and unbelievable”, to ease the tension between Helen and Tracy.
In the middle of planning the party, Patrick pops in, asking for an 8 letter word for unfaithful, for a puzzle he’s doing! Immediately, Mary Jane is on alert, being that she was caught by Patrick giving head to Andre. She’s hoping that he doesn’t blast her business to the family. But then, Patrick asks Helen, what she thinks of adultery and she gives an honest opinion, “I think that anyone vile enough to break their marriage vows, and anyone stupid enough to help him, deserves all the ill will heaven despairs.” YIKES! Mary Jane, can’t take the heat, so she asks Patrick if she could talk to him in the other room. They both walk away and Patrick is so unmoved and callous by all this, his lack of care is expressed by stating that it’s fun for him, to tease her about it. He probably knows Andre on a whole other level than what Mary Jane knows, so her sleeping with Andre, he ain’t really for it. Mary Jane suggests hush money to Patrick, and he asks, “it’s that good?” He then tells her an unreasonable amount of $30,000 for hush money. Mary Jane is so not for it! No money was exchanged, but Patrick tells her to “just stop it”. In her feelings, Mary Jane tells Patrick that Andre LOVES her. Patrick laughs at her and says that she reminds him of someone he used to know, him. This is when we find out that Patrick is a cocaine addict. He compares her traits of addiction to the definition of what addictions really are, no matter the drug of choice (lies, sneaking around, sex, money, etc.) to enlighten her on her behavior. Mary Jane makes him promise to keep her affair with Andre between them and he does.
Kara is asked by co-worker, Julian, to look into covering a story about a 38 year old woman who was found dead in her apartment after 3 years, still watching tv, and not missed by anyone. Kara wants to know the angle and why it’s being talked about today, if this incident occurred 3 years ago. Julian tell her that the woman’s story has been turned into a documentary. Kara, is immediately turned off by the fact that it’s a documentary and asks why isn’t Cynthia covering the story. Julian tells her that it was bumped by the Beyonce documentary. Kara tells Julian to leave her the details, and she would research it later.
In a separate room, Kara and another gentleman, Sawyer, is waiting on Mark to show up for a meeting, I’m assuming to discuss his rating and revisions for his show. It seems as if everyone in the whole damn station is bitter that Kara has taken the job of producing Mark’s show. When Mark doesn’t show up for the meeting, Kara walks out and into Mary Jane’s office, pitching her the story of the 38 year old woman found dead in her home. Kara suggests to Mary Jane that since they lost their “death row” story that she should consider covering this new story, sticking with the theme. Mary Jane, clearly is not feeling the story because she doesn’t want to feel like she’s the go-to-girl for every lonely single woman. But Kara pitches the story even broader, by saying that this is not just a woman’s issue, especially since the world is so disconnected and isolated, “no wonder why this happened”. What is surprising, is that this is not happening more often, because of the people’s disconnection to their neighbors.
Remember back in the day, when your parents, or parent’s parents knew their neighbor(s), hell, damn near everyone on the block? A story like this wouldn’t happen back in the day! But now, because everyone is so concerned about themselves, and also because most of society is just not as trusting and safe as it use to be anymore, the likelihood of stories like this are not surprising.
Patrick & Dad
Patrick asks his Dad to call off his surprise party. Yeah, he wasn’t suppose to know that the family was throwing him a party. But dad, explains to Patrick how much it means to his mother, Helen, and because he’s been sober for 2 years, her prayers have basically been answered and worth celebrating. Dad tells Patrick, he’s gonna go and he better act surprised.
Mary Jane begins her research of the woman who was found dead in her home, watching the documentary made surrounding her death. Connecting with the woman’s story after watching the documentary, she calls Kara and tells her she’s doing the story.
Kara & Mark
Finally, Kara catches up with Mark. She asks him why he’s avoiding her. Mark kinda gives her a lame excuse, saying he was in traffic and that he was going to call her. Mark gives her a time slot in his schedule, and Kara takes it as him being a bitch, not wanting to work with her. She reminds his ass of his low ratings and says that if he doesn’t want to work with her, “be man enough to say it”. In my opinion, I think she was totally trying to belittle him because he is gay man. Mark’s pissed! He tells Kara “his ass doesn’t need any fixing, any saving, any tweaking, or any mending, he’s news a man, and just wants to do the news.” Kara tells him that Greg is in need of status report and to let her know what the hell he wants it to say and walks out.
Mary Jane is live covering the story of the dead woman, with the director of the documentary, and real life guest, Jesse Jackson. He says he’s not surprised. Mary Jane switches gears and asks Jesse Jackson, is social media the blame for this. He explains that some change is good and that we should go forward and not backward by fear, which rings bells for Mark overlooking the show from a distance. Because of desensitizing technology, is the reason why the woman went missing for so long.
I totally get that!
The whole family is in attendance at the party, while Patrick is trying to remain comfortable with it all. He tries on his gifts and then Tracy decides to give a small speech.
So, Helen, doesn’t like Tracy!Because she acted like she didn’t want to hear anything Tracy was going to say about Patrick. Tracy tells her side of the story of how she met Patrick, and how she’s happy to be with him, and personally congratulates him on his sobriety. Patrick is looking uneasy! He feels like he doesn’t deserve this party and all I’m wondering is why not, unless he’s secretly still abusing drugs.
Kara & Mark
Mark walks in on Kara on the phone with her child. After she hangs up, he tells her the story of his first story and wanting to be like his news anchor idol Bernard Shaw. Marks goes down a memorable list of interviews he’s done. And after 17 years, he’s struggling with change. Kara, in the nicest way she can, tells him that his show is not that good, “America fell asleep, women think you’re dull, men think you’re arrogant, and kids think you should retire”. Mark says that maybe it’s not him and, maybe it’s the viewers. To put it more bluntly, Kara agrees, but stresses they need the viewers! Kara pitches a sexier way of telling the news, including a pop culture segment. She points out his skills, and pleads with him to let her help him make his show hot and knowledgable. He agrees!
Co-worker, Cynthia walks in Mary Jane’s office to compliment her the Samantha Haven story, saying that she found an angle that she never thought of. Just before leaving, she tells Mary Jane that she Greg fire Julian. (Remember the guy that pitched the story to Kara?)
Cynthia claims that loyalty is a premium, and it’s important that “we stay in our own lane”. Reluctantly, but peeping game, Mary Jane agrees. Cynthia threw a hell of a brick!! She basically told Mary Jane that she can get her ass fired, too!
Mary Jane goes home to relax and unwind. She goes online and takes an internet “Are you an addict” test. And 100%, she’s an addict!
Patrick is meeting with, guest star Darrin Henson’s character, to discuss his new venture, starting an upscale mobile lounge, and he’s uninterested because it’s basically just a food truck. A food truck where he and a partner of his would invest $30,000, into a risky business with someone who has no credit, no cash, nothing to bring to the table. I wouldn’t be surprised if this story develops into homeboy actually starting his own “upscale mobile lounge” behind Patrick’s back. Patrick reminds homeboy that the idea to start the last venture (nightclub) was his, but homeboy wasn’t having it, telling him that he wouldn’t be in the position he’s in now, had he sold out when they did. Homeboy ends up telling Patrick that he’ll run the idea past his partner, Curtis, and will get back to him. That sounds like a “don’t call us, we’ll call you type of deal”!
Mary Jane having the urge to move on, looks like she’s getting rid of anything that reminds her of Andre, after deleting his contact info from her phone. Looking like a LOVE junkie, a frustrated Mary Jane is on the phone with customer service, trying to figure out how to get Andre’s phone number back after deleting it. She is introduced to the cloud (it saves everything)! After finding out that the cloud backs up all of her information, she quickly returns to her sweet self, LOL!
Mary Jane & Patrick
Mary Jane calls her brother for some support. When Mary Jane is picked up by Patrick, she gets in the car and admits that she is an addict,
“Hi My name is Mary Jane, and I’m an addict”
All together, “HELLO MARY JANE!”
Patrick takes Mary Jane to their Aunt Toni’s house, after asking him what he does when he’s “jonesing”.
And “yuck” at that the fact that the nasty dirty uncle took a big chunky grip out of Mary Jane’s ass, while greeting her with a hug! So Mary Jane hasn’t been to her Aunt’s house in over a year, and it seems mainly because they are not of the same caliber of the life she lives and is accustomed to. Aunt Toni is cooking nothing but soul food! Aunt Toni’s house is a place where Patrick can reconnect to himself, which keeps him from “jonesing”. Aunt Toni asks Patrick how he’s holding up. He says he’s holding up pretty well. Aunt Toni tells him that she prays for him all the time, as well as the rest of the family.
After leaving Aunt Toni’s house, Mary Jane gets in the car, not ready to go home. Patrick takes her to the club that he started. They have a conversation where he tells Mary Jane that she needs to leave Andre alone. She tells him that she’s already in LOVE with Andre, but she feels stupid for not seeing it come. As Mary Jane and Patrick are looking at the “closed down” club, Patrick tells her, “this is what happens when you don’t see it coming”. Patrick was referring to his own addictions leading him to a dangerous path, messing up his life entirely, and ultimately losing his club. He reflects on his life a little more, saying that he was the man, his game was popping, he was the king of Atlanta, until cocaine became his vice.
Patrick tells Mary Jane, it’s not worth it. Mary Jane shares with Patrick that Andre proposed to her.
“Dad’s miserable, mom is sick, coke head son, and a daughter who is sleeping with a married man, oh, have the Huxtables have fallen”, says Patrick.
Mary Jane tells Patrick that she is there for Patrick whenever he needs because he’s always been there for her. Amazed, Patrick wants to ask her for the $30k, being that he needs the money to start his business and start a new life, but instead, he asks her to promise him to call on him when she feels the urge to go back to Andre. Mary Janes makes that promise to call Patrick instead of Andre, for support.
Patrick knocks on the door of the family’s house at 2am. Dad opens the door and is frustrated! Patrick doesn’t have a key because of his past behavior involving his cocaine addiction. Patrick asks his dad to revisit the idea that he could get a key and Dad claims he’ll think about. Shortly after, Patrick is in his room, thinking, and thinking, and all of a sudden is snorting cocaine!
Maybe that was the uneasy feeling he had been feeling while the family was praising him and planning his party, celebrating his two year sobriety.
Mary Jane lies in bed, looking as if she can’t sleep. She turns over and lies onto Andre’s back.
I guess they both were jonesing a little too hard, hard enough to succumb to their own individual addictions.
Stay tuned to what happens on the next episode of Being Mary Jane!
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