The Buddha Spotlight introduces you to Denika Penn-Carothers!
Intuitive Counselor & Reiki Practitioner
(Q) Goddess Mena Love: How did you step into being the intuitive person that you are?
(A) Denika Penn-Carothers: I’ve always been very intuitive and very aware. We all have intuition. We’re all born and gifted with that, but not everyone lives from that space. I’ve always been able to sense things and could feel things, but was never really comfortable with it.
When I was a child, my mother’s mother passed on and her spirit was in the house that we we’re in, but at 11 yrs old, you don’t want to know that. My grandmother was literally moving things. I know she moved me from one side of the bed to the other side of the bed, so that she should get in the bed to sleep with me and my sister. I felt that very strongly when I woke up because I was on the other side of the bed and my bracelet was missing. That night, I had slept with some of her chains on, and my sister and I had argued about which one of us would get to sleep on that side of the bed, I ended up winning! So when I woke up the next morning, I was immediately aware that I was in another place, and that my bracelet was missing. We turned the house upside down, but never found my bracelet. There was a strong sense that she took it. It was kind of weird to me, but I felt it so strongly. I told my mom, “Grandma took my bracelet”, and my mom said, “yeah, she probably did ’cause you had her chains on, so she wanted something of yours!” That was when I was 11 yrs old. I could feel the presence in the house, but at that time I really didn’t know what that was. I was uncomfortable and I was scared.
I kind of shut that down and didn’t want anything to do with dead people, didn’t want anything to do with spirits, but as I got older and realized my connection and my gifting (in my late teens) , I wanted to step into the spirit realm but I said “if you step into one aspect spirit realm, you have to step into all of them, you cannot separate it.” I wasn’t ready to deal with any demons or anything like that! There was still some hesitation and some fear, but yet there was this strong, strong feeling. People would come to me and I would just share with them, and people would ask me, “how do you know that?”, and I don’t know, I always knew that I had the gift of healing people in their hearts because I would go directly to their heart center without even really realizing what I was doing.
Growing up in the church, that kind of stifled it to an extent as well, because you’re told that you don’t talk to spirits and that people can come in the form of your LOVED ones, but their familiar spirits and all that stuff, so it’s not that I was confused, I just was uncomfortable. Like, how do you talk to people about this? I had this strong sense that what’s happening is something different from what you’re saying, but if you’re the influence and the guidance, how do I get clarity on where I am? So, it kind of just became about me dealing with an inner, and just talking to God all the time and spirits, and feeling angels and seeing them.
I remember actually having an experience one time where I saw a whole host of angels circled around me, and I was in the middle of the floor. At that time, when that happened, I was stepping into something, activating this spiritual gift. And so, I just began to pray to God for the truth. I said, “God, I just want the truth. I don’t want what I’ve been influenced by. I don’t want what other people have told me, it’s their opinions and their beliefs. I wanna know from you why I’m here. What is this life about? And what is the truth of spirit and our connection to the spirit realm?” That’s when things started really happening, and I said to God, “I don’t want it from the outside, I want it strictly from you. If you’re gonna send people, because I’m a person that needs to talk and/or hear things from people at times, if you’re gonna send them to me, send them organically, send someone who I don’t know, someone who I’ve never met before, send it through a way that’s not familiar.” And things just started stirring up! I noticed, specifically books, started showing up.
There is such a degree of respect within the boundaries of the spiritual realm. Spirit cannot make direct contact with you, unless you give it permission.
The first book I read on spirit guides was, The Law of Attraction: The teachings of Abraham by Ester Hicks. That book was talking about Abraham being the spirit guide. The first thing I did when I started reading was close the book! I said,
“God, let me tell you something. This is the book you have for me to read? You need to start doing something!”
I started pointing to my head and my heart,
“In here and in here, quick, because this does not line up with what I’ve been taught!”
I heard a voice very clearly say,
“Denika, read the book.”
So that was the first introduction to spirit guides, and spirit guides talking to me. That book came organically, because that book just showed up!
One day I was in the shower, I heard activity, like somewhere in the bathroom, I thought it was my husband or just one of my daughters, I didn’t think anything of it. I heard a sound, like a rocket, like someone was opening up doors and cupboards.
I said,”Who’s in here!”
I heard my dad say, “Nika, it’s me”,
“Daddy? what are you doing here?”, I replied
What I had grown to hear, was that when spirits are traveling, it means they are getting ready to cross over. So, I asked my dad, “What are you doing here?”
And he said, “just looking around. You have a nice house.”
“Thank you”, I responded.
“You have a good looking man.” said, Daddy.
My dad had never met my husband.
I laughed and said, “yeah, I know. “Daddy, what are you doing here?”
My dad said, “Denika, I’m just visiting. I figured if you can talk to me from Houston, I can come to Houston, to you. Chris is with you all the time.”
My dad was speaking of my sister who had passed away in 1999.
I said, “yeah, I know.”
“How do you know?”, he asked.
“Because I feel her all the time.”
“Yeah, she’s here with you all the time.”
Right after he said that, my eldest daughter came into the bathroom, while I was still in the shower.
She said, “Mommy, you have one of these?” I said, “what?”. She opened the showered door, and she was holding a DVD of my sister. My sister was a recording artist, and my dad had produced a tribute DVD to her before he passed, she passed right after him. My sister’s face was on the DVD.
I said, “yeah, I have one.” So my daughter says, “ok” and ran out of the bathroom. At that moment I said to my dad, “thank you so much for confirming this conversation, because I know I ain’t crazy!” So, I tell my dad, “you gotta keep fighting, keep fighting.” He says, ” I am”. When I came out of the shower, I was sitting on the bed, same daughter comes back in the room and says “Mommy, look what I just found?” She handed me a piece of paper, a note that my father had written to her. And I just laughed and told her to hold on to that. When she walked out of the room, I said, “Daddy, thank you so much, thank you for all the confirmation that this really happened.” At this time, my dad was in the hospital, and the doctors didn’t know if they should perform surgery, they didn’t think he would survive the operation. After we had this conversation, he rallied. This conversation happened on a Friday, on Saturday, he rallied, and they felt good enough to go in to do the exploratory surgery to see what was wrong.
I told my dad, “keeping fighting.”
“Nika I’m gonna fight.” he said.
But when they opened him up, all of his organs were black, and all they could do was close him back up again. When I got that call from the hospital, I felt the life force leave out of me. I started crying and screaming, because it was like the grieving process was starting.
“Daddy, you gotta fight!”
He said, “Nika, I’ve been fighting, but I need organs to fight with.
That was Sunday and early Monday morning, when he passed. He started telling me some things about the spirit realm, and what his experience was when he crossed over. It was all in alignment with things that I felt. I grew up in the “God & Hell, and Damnation”, but that never made any sense to me. If God is this LOVING God, why do we gotta come here to figure it out, don’t figure it out, and end up suffering?!
I was in Chik-Fil-A, in Sugarland, TX, off hwy 99, and as I was having lunch at Chik-Fil-A, he (Dad) sat across from me.
I said, “Daddy, talk to me.”
“Nika, this place is something else! It’s so different from what we’ve been taught! there’s nothing but pure, unconditional LOVE here, no judgement, and no condemnation.”
My dad had been sick for awhile, he had gone from this robust man to a really skinny man.
He said, “Nika, you should see my body!”
I laughed and said, “How does it look? Does it look like how it was when we were growing up?”
“Yeah, but more fit! More tall! Man, I just look good!”
It’s almost like he couldn’t find the words to adequately describe what the condition of his body was. I realized that it was the glory. I realized that it’s a different language! Because when human spirit speaks to me, or when I’m doing free writing, where things come to me and I just write, when spirit is speaking to me the language is just so different. It’s not like how we speak. It’s just very evolved, so he was trying to find a word! The only word or phrase he could say was, “Man, I look good!” So, that’s was a real connection and that happened right before he crossed over. Understand that his crossing over was to help me, with a catalyst to help me fully step into gifting, the connection, and my intuition. Since then, I’ve just been completely open.
***Denika Penn-Carothers is an Intuitve Counselor, that specializes in intuitive life coaching, intuitive readings, reiki touch therapy, and chakra balancing. Visit her site Into You Intuitive Healing, for an initial free consultation and more information on the healing services she provides.
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